At age 16, I smoked two to three joints on the weekends. About a year later, I was already using hashish and marijuana daily. I thought I would miss something if I didn’t smoke with the others. I moved into a shared flat. Then I didn’t feel like working anymore. Daily, we talked rubbish, played play-station, watched videos and smoked pot on the side. All our money was spent on drugs; from the beginning of 1998, one to two pills of ecstasy and one to two tabs of acid per night. From summer 1998, I was using speed in the mornings to wake up. If available, I also used cocaine and crack. My hashish use increased significantly to 2 g per day. I lost more and more weight, was aggressive and listless and felt as though burnt out. I saw myself as physically and psychologically dependent, but it actually didn’t interest me much.
In October 1998, I got myself introduced into the teaching of Bruno Gröning out of curiosity. I visited the community hours irregularly. Beginning of 1999, I hardly went to parties anymore; thereby the ecstasy and acid fell away. The need for loud music, lots of people and action had disappeared. Almost unnoticed, the drug use reduced itself. From summer 1999, I also downright forgot about speed and found a lovely job at the theater. On New Year’s Eve 1999, I smoked pot for the last time. Since then, I have been free from drugs once and for all. I also completely broke off contact with the old
“friends”.
Since the age of 14 I drank alcohol from time to time; later on stopping only at the point before becoming nauseous. At the age of 16, when my girlfriend and I had broken off our relationship and my parents had divorced, I reached for hashish and within 3 years I was using up to 3 grams daily. Half a year later our gang introduced me to Speed. On the weekends I used as much as two or three lines. I tried LSD four or five times but stopped this after my second horror-trip. In January, 1994, I started using Ecstasy at techno-parties. Eventually I used up to three tablets per night. In August of the same year I became emotionally dependent on a boy who frightened me with esoteric death predictions and threatened me. In October, 1994, I managed on my own to stop using all drugs and to break away from my background. During this time of withdrawal I became very depressed, lived in mortal fear and had a persecution complex. I considered suicide.
A friend of my mother's told me about the teaching of Bruno Groening and in December, 1994, I was introduced. Immediately I felt love, serenity and contentment. I felt liberated. Depression and fear disappeared spontaneously after the introduction. Once more I became aware of myself, could mingle with other people and realized again that there was meaning in life.
In June, 1995, as a result of the wrong friends, I had a relapse: I returned to the use of hashish and drank alcohol daily. I resigned from my work and flew to Nepal. There I smoked 5 to 10 joints per day and used the ten-times stronger "hashish" as well.
In December, 1995, I went home. Since January, 1996, I resumed taking up the healing power and managed to stop the use of hashish, alcohol and cigarettes. Since then I've had no further desire for drugs. In the middle of 1996 I enrolled in night school and simultaneously started on an apprenticeship, which I completed successfully in February, 1997. I've made myself professionally independent and in May, 2001, I got married. Today, after 9 years, I am still free of all drugs.