At age 16, I smoked two to three joints on the weekends. About a year later, I was already using hashish and marijuana daily. I thought I would miss something if I didn’t smoke with the others. I moved into a shared flat. Then I didn’t feel like working anymore. Daily, we talked rubbish, played play-station, watched videos and smoked pot on the side. All our money was spent on drugs; from the beginning of 1998, one to two pills of ecstasy and one to two tabs of acid per night. From summer 1998, I was using speed in the mornings to wake up. If available, I also used cocaine and crack. My hashish use increased significantly to 2 g per day. I lost more and more weight, was aggressive and listless and felt as though burnt out. I saw myself as physically and psychologically dependent, but it actually didn’t interest me much.
In October 1998, I got myself introduced into the teaching of Bruno Gröning out of curiosity. I visited the community hours irregularly. Beginning of 1999, I hardly went to parties anymore; thereby the ecstasy and acid fell away. The need for loud music, lots of people and action had disappeared. Almost unnoticed, the drug use reduced itself. From summer 1999, I also downright forgot about speed and found a lovely job at the theater. On New Year’s Eve 1999, I smoked pot for the last time. Since then, I have been free from drugs once and for all. I also completely broke off contact with the old
“friends”.
At the age of twelve I started to smoke and to drink alcohol together with friends. When I was 15 I got into marijuana and pot, with 17 into LSD. During the following two years I took a whole blotting paper full of LSD six times. The seventh time I reacted to the LSD with hallucinations which caused such fears that I stayed at home for days. The anxiety did not go away. No doctor could help. For six years after the use of LSD described above I suffered from those panic attacks. Often I had tachycardia (increased heart rate) and a great fear of dying. At the age of 23 I stopped smoking marijuana, the effect got too intense. After a breakdown at 25 years of age I was sent to a psychiatric unit. After that I got injections against the anxiety and the tachycardia for a year, but without any bettering of my condition. My situation seamed hopeless to me.
In July, 2000, a friend told me about Bruno Groening and I was introduced into the teaching. I regularly took in the Heilstrom. Four months later the tachycardia and the anxiety were gone. I don't take any drugs anymore. I also quit smoking.