When I was 22 years old, on my first visit to a gaming club, I won about 2500 Euro. After that I was drawn in, at least once a week, to playing the slot machines. I always wanted to win more, it was never enough and I couldn’t withstand the compulsion to play. After two years I became aware that I was addicted to gambling. In the end I was playing up to eight times a month. In emergencies I borrowed money from other gamblers, as is usual in these circles. I painstakingly hid this 11-year gambling addiction from family and friends.
On 13 November 2004 I was introduced to the teaching of Bruno Gröning. Right after the introduction I gambled away all the money I had with me in a gaming hall - about 300 Euro. Since then I have never ever played again. It feels like something was removed from my ‘hard drive’. I don’t feel any urge to play anymore. On that day I was freed from that terrible
addiction.
Every week from the age of 16, I ordered everything I could from the store about ghosts, phantoms and horror. I simply had to have it and to read it, hurried home, and devoured it all as fast as possible, even while on the toilet; that’s how fascinated I was by these stories about spirits which preyed upon people. I read everything more than once, collected it and if I got disturbed reading it then I really got crazy. At 21 I developed a passion for horror films which could not be gruesome or bloodthirsty enough. I bought myself the whole grim lineup of these videos, watched them all repeatedly, almost every night. During the worst scenes I looked away or buried my face in my legs. Everything tensed up inside me and I always froze, but I was not able to get up or even to turn the movie off. As though paralyzed I had to see the end. I also had fear of the dark. The hallway light had to be on and I slept badly. I had no answer for myself or for my husband as to why I did this to myself.
At 31 years of age, on June 24 1995, I was introduced to the teaching of Bruno Gröning and from then on was freed from this longstanding addiction to horror. I never again read another one of those comics or watched those kinds of films, never bought any more and removed my collection in cartons from the house. I didn’t need it anymore. Today I am no longer afraid of the
dark.