Shortly after my 18th birthday (1968) I started to drink beer and spirits. It became a pattern in my life to go a bar after work and to go to work in the mornings with a shocking hangover. Every night I drank between 12 and 17 glasses of beer. This went on for 35 years.
My first marriage suffered because of it and ended in divorce. After the divorce (1982) I fell into a deep depression. Two suicide attempts left big gaps in my memory. I am a single parent and only the love for my son and daughter kept me alive.
In January 2004 I was introduced to the teaching of Bruno Gröning. In April 2004 I noticed that I had gone five days in a row without drinking even one single beer, I hadn’t even thought about it. For me that was a miracle, to be totally free of the craving for alcohol after 35 years of alcoholism. There were no withdrawal symptoms. It feels as though I became a different person and I really am.
Since October 2004 the depression has also disappeared. Hopelessness and fear have given way to joy. Joy and gratitude for being
alive.
In 1986 - when I was 27 years old, I began smoking hashish. Two years later I also took LSD. I became depressed after a divorce and another separation from a woman. I turned cocaine and heroin. I grew opium, psychedelic mushrooms, Jimson weed and hemp myself. When I didn't have any heroin or cocaine I swallowed tranquillizers and stimulants (including Mandrax, Diazepam or Captagon, and Ritalin). In 1991 I felt so bad that I threw out all the drugs and went cold turkey. But still my life remained aimless and devoid of any happiness. From 1995 to 2000 I worked looking after people with severe disabilities and at the same time cared for my grandmother. I had almost no energy left for my own life. I smoked hashish again and drank regularly initially wine and then up to half a bottle of whiskey and six to seven cans of beer every night. Then, when there was a threat of losing my job because of my drug taking, I actually stopped drinking - but my will to live was totally extinguished. I oscillated between depression and aggression in the form of mindless destruction.
I learnt about the teaching of Bruno Groening through a doctor, and was introduced in May of 2000. Five days later I burnt all the drugs. Since then I have been drug free. I have no hankering for them any more. Depression and aggression belong to the past. I am now a contented and happy person.
Since the age of 14 I drank alcohol from time to time; later on stopping only at the point before becoming nauseous. At the age of 16, when my girlfriend and I had broken off our relationship and my parents had divorced, I reached for hashish and within 3 years I was using up to 3 grams daily. Half a year later our gang introduced me to Speed. On the weekends I used as much as two or three lines. I tried LSD four or five times but stopped this after my second horror-trip. In January, 1994, I started using Ecstasy at techno-parties. Eventually I used up to three tablets per night. In August of the same year I became emotionally dependent on a boy who frightened me with esoteric death predictions and threatened me. In October, 1994, I managed on my own to stop using all drugs and to break away from my background. During this time of withdrawal I became very depressed, lived in mortal fear and had a persecution complex. I considered suicide.
A friend of my mother's told me about the teaching of Bruno Groening and in December, 1994, I was introduced. Immediately I felt love, serenity and contentment. I felt liberated. Depression and fear disappeared spontaneously after the introduction. Once more I became aware of myself, could mingle with other people and realized again that there was meaning in life.
In June, 1995, as a result of the wrong friends, I had a relapse: I returned to the use of hashish and drank alcohol daily. I resigned from my work and flew to Nepal. There I smoked 5 to 10 joints per day and used the ten-times stronger "hashish" as well.
In December, 1995, I went home. Since January, 1996, I resumed taking up the healing power and managed to stop the use of hashish, alcohol and cigarettes. Since then I've had no further desire for drugs. In the middle of 1996 I enrolled in night school and simultaneously started on an apprenticeship, which I completed successfully in February, 1997. I've made myself professionally independent and in May, 2001, I got married. Today, after 9 years, I am still free of all drugs.